Fat, Out of Shape and Frustrated!!

This is something kind of personal for me and I don't like to talk about it much, but here it goes. I've been talking for weeks, even months now about how I want and need to lose some weight. This weekend I think I have finally realized that it is a necessity. Growing up I used to dance 4 or 5 times a week for 4 or 5 hours each day so I never really had to worry about exercising or anything because I was definitely getting the workout I needed. For the past few years I have really been struggling with eating too much and never wanting to exercise. I have been busy, lazy and just not wanting to do it. I feel like I have tried to lose the weight by eating better, joining weight watchers and a little bit of exercising here and there. The truth is I haven't tried hard enough, I know I can try harder and I will!! I know you may be thinking that I don't really need to lose weight because that is what a lot of people tell me and probably what I have been telling myself. I have been told by my doctor that I need to lose a little. I know I would feel better about myself as well. A few years ago I found out I have some thyroid problems and that is supposed to make it harder to lose the weight, which may be part of the problem, who knows. Next April I would like to run in either the half or full marathon. I have been trying to run for the past couple months and I am horrible!! I have no endurance whatsoever!!! This is one of my goals and I'm going to try my hardest and not give up. I also just want to be healthier and have more energy. So, starting tomorrow, April 14 I am turning over a new life. I am going to stop drinking soda and also stop my weekly tan iced mocha for a few weeks to see if either of these things make a difference on how I feel. This is going to be hard and I may be grouchy this week, but it will be worth it. I know diet soda isn't THAT bad for you, but I just want to stop for a while and see how I feel. I am also going to make regular trips to the gym or go for a walk or run outside or even do a workout DVD in the privacy of my own home. My time is few and far between with school every night and working but I am going to make this work. I am going to eat better and watch my portion sizes, which I think is one of my biggest issues. Thank you all for listening to me vent about this stupid weight issue that has been bothering me for months now. I am excited to lose a few pounds and go out to the pool feeling comfortable this summer. I love you all!! Thanks for your support!!